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I haven't posted in awhile because I didn't think that anyone read this. But Glynis asked for an update, so here goes!

I finally moved back to Temple. I have loved getting to see Adam every day. It's so much better than long distance! I don't really like my living situation, though. I'm living with the widow that I lived with two summers ago when I was a youth intern. It doesn't feel like home because I'm not comfortable. I try not to be there when she's there (which is hard because she's ALWAYS there - she's retired). She's really nice and sweet I just wish I had my own place. I have applied for my own apartment and if I get accepted I will move in around March 7th. So that's good news!! I wish it was now, but that's okay.

I just finished one of my online classes and got an A. I am in one more that ends in a few weeks. Then I start two more at the end of February. I think I will try to take some classes at UMHB this summer though, and maybe in the fall too.

Me and Adam are really goood. We are so glad that I don't live two hours away anymore. We are doing a Bible study together and are leading worship together again at youth on Wednesday nights. The apartment that I applied for is in his complex, so that will be good, because at night I'm not supposed to drive on my medicine. So this way, not only will I be safer with him nearby, but he can just walk me home at night or whenever.

Oh and I took my niece to see Hannah Montana on Thursday night. It was a lot of fun - besides the thousands of screaming young girls in my ears, lol. It was hard to hear anything when we left. Kourtney had a great time though. It was for her birthday. She's turning twelve in a few weeks, which is C-R-A-Z-Y! It makes me feel really old.

Okay well that's all for now. Leave some love!

It's been a loooong while

Okay so it's been a super long while since I last posted.

I'm doing okay... really wishing I lived in the Temple/Belton area. I miss all my friends and Adam so much and it's hard being at home. And I've been feeling really separated from God. I can never feel close to Him in this house. It's why I wasn't a strong Christian until I left for college. I just started a new Bible study (Breaking Free by Beth Moore) with my older friend Judy from church so maybe that will help. I am thirsty for Him, to be nearer to Him. Please pray that I will find Him.

My new job is going okay. I don't like it that much. I'm trying to keep at it and I think I don't like it just because I'd rather be working somewhere in Temple. Today a girl asked me a math question and I didn't know the answer, and she looked at me like I was stupid. So of course that wasn't a good feeling. I'm not giving up yet though. We'll see how it goes over the next few weeks.

I'm in an online Texas History class that is self paced, which means I do the work when I want to. This is HARD! It's hard motivating myself to do it when I don't actually have a due date. I slacked off last week but now I'm catching up. Next week I start a math class that isn't self paced, so we'll see how that goes. I'm kind of scared that I'll get overwhelmed doing the two classes and my job, because I'm all of a sudden busy. Going from having nothing to do to being busy is a hard transition. My body doesn't like it. But I need to be more responsible so I'm trying to keep up.

Things are good with me and Adam... long distance is hard but it's good. He doesn't like talking on the phone that much so that is a struggle because talking on the phone is all we have. He doesn't really get on the internet either so email or instant messenger isn't really an option. I've seen him the last few weekends so that has been good. I love going to the football games so I've been doing that and going to the Bible studies with my youth girls.

Okay well I guess that's about all for now. Leave some love!

Even Longer

It's been even longer since I last posted. I will have to post later though. Right now my niece and nephew are over and I'm trying to help them read and practice some school work before it starts next week. Duty calls. :)

Surgery

Well it's been a loooong time since I posted last. And if this post doesn't make any sense, it's because I'm laying in a hospital bed drugged up.

I was in a car acccident in April of 2005. I've had a LOT of health problems since then. Last year they found a spondylolisthesis and they talked about doing surgery, but the doctors were kind of wishy washy about it :"You could have the surgery..." This condition means that in my lower back there is a piece of bone missing/broken that is connected to my discs and it is making the disc at that level slip off. Well this past April, only a few days after the 2 year anniversary of the car accident, I herniated that bad disc and was in the hospital for a week.

Two months and three surgeons later I am in the hospital again. I visited two surgeons and although they were both nice, I believe God was putting fear in my heart for a reason. Anytime I talked about the surgery I started crying. They wanted to go in through my abdomen, take out TWO discs (even though only one was bad) then turn me over to go in through in my back and put in a bone fusion and screws and rods. Finally I found a 3rd surgeon who seemed like a God-send. He only wanted to go in through the front, and only take out the bad disc. he couldn't believe what the other doctor wanted to do. He explained everything so well. And because I'm so petite, he was going to put in a metal plate in front to hold the new bone fusion and my spine together. I no longer had the fear. Even when they wheeled me in I was not afraid. I knew the Lord was in control and He had given me peace because I was doing the right thing. The only thing I was nervous about was waking up- because I had no idea as to what to expect pain-wise, etc. The plan was to have the surgery Tuesday, and then go home after a few days.

When I woke up, my left leg was in horrid pain. They thought it would go away. It didn't. Friday I had emergency surgery. Still didn't go away. Saturday was my birthday. Still in the hospital. Today I am having my third back surgery in one week.

Please pray.

Even a longer while

Okay well I haven't posted in a long time because so much has happened! I've been in the hospital. I'm trying to decide whether or not to have surgery... but I think I'm starting to feel better about having it. Basically everyone I have talked to has encouraged me to have it. No one is against it and they think it's best for me. I talked to Emily, and considering that she has screws, hooks, and rods all up and down her back, I was very excited to talk to her. She also thinks I should have it. I'm still pretty scared, and I think my mom is making an appointment with me to see another doctor next week, just in case. I'm still praying that I will make the right decision (this is so HUGE for me to make! What if I choose the wrong one?) I'm really scared, so anytime you are praying, please remember me.

Sorry!

It's been quite awhile. I think last week sometime I almost updated- I had the page up and I was ready to go, but then I got a phone call. Oh well.

Let's see. Since choir tour, I went to Spring Break camp with my youth group. It was fun, but something arose on the last night that has created a lot of problems. I hate drama. I wish I could explain, but I've been trying really hard not to tell people things that aren't their business (basically gossiping) because I can be pretty bad about that. Anyway, Camp was really great overall, and a lot of that was because of Alex, Adam's brother, who was visiting from Kentucky for the week. It was awesome!

While at camp, I received a phone call. It was very exciting news. I'm going to China! I think everyone who reads this already knows, but I'm very excited! I'm leaving on May 19th. This is an amazing opportunity straight from the Lord.

Meanwhile, it's already April and that means there's only about a month left until school is out. I am completely unmotivated to do school work!! Especially because... I don't think I want to do education anymore. Which doesn't help. Blah!


But the Lord is good, and He is doing many wonderful things in my heart!

Choir Tour

It's been awhile because I've been away on choir tour. We were supposed to leave on Saturday, but ended up leaving Sunday morning due to ill members and needed rest. The tour was disappointing because all of our destinations were pretty much last-minute. We drove to Abilene, rehearsed in a beautiful church, then performed at a different one. Monday, Tuesday, and today were spent at high schools in Denton, Irving, Keller... We sang for their choirs. It's basically a recruiting thing. I was sad because I really wanted to sing at my old high school, but they were on winter break this week.

Ironically, my devotional the day before we left was about loving people, even when it's hard to love them. Loving those that aren't easy to love. I knew of one specific person who it was going to be hard to love while being with them for a few days straight, and I prayed for patience and love. Oh, but did the Lord test me!! I all of a sudden had very low patience for many people, not just the one. And I also grew easily tired of the music we were singing. This has never happened before. I have always loved performing, no matter how many times it happened. Ironic that the music we were singing is pretty much all praise music? Anyway... the trip was interesting to say the least. We did have fun though. It will be my last choir trip because I'm pretty sure that this is my last semester in choir. What a weird feeling...