Even a longer while

Okay well I haven't posted in a long time because so much has happened! I've been in the hospital. I'm trying to decide whether or not to have surgery... but I think I'm starting to feel better about having it. Basically everyone I have talked to has encouraged me to have it. No one is against it and they think it's best for me. I talked to Emily, and considering that she has screws, hooks, and rods all up and down her back, I was very excited to talk to her. She also thinks I should have it. I'm still pretty scared, and I think my mom is making an appointment with me to see another doctor next week, just in case. I'm still praying that I will make the right decision (this is so HUGE for me to make! What if I choose the wrong one?) I'm really scared, so anytime you are praying, please remember me.